3AM

Reading with the moonlight It is now 3am in the morning and I am still staying up and was reading the books titled "Women" by Charles Bukowski. I have been like this for 3 nights and I think it has been a good read. Sometimes when I started reading I feel alone, isolating from the world and feeling away from my surroudings, but sometimes I also feel lonely, drowning myself in the world that the writing proposed. I don't want to talk about the content and writing a report here for the books, that is bullshit, you should grap it yourself and give a read if you are interested in reading. I just want to use writing to fill my loneiness and emptiness, or else I am going back to my bed and finish that book tonight and feeling more depress or lonely and couldn't sleep...anyway I might not be sleeping tonight..... There are too many constraints in life....I have faced enough these few days, the world for me in certain part is really ridiculous, people just don't know you but they would dare to challenge you cause they just don't give a damn of who you are and most important how you would be feeling. TRUST ME, they don't. Is it right to write things like this here? It's my turn to not give a damn. :-)